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And that’s really spoiled of me. Basically what I want to do is only what I’m good at and as an adult I just don’t think thats possible.

And on further consideration it’s more then just spoiled it’s cowardly. The reason I don’t want to do things I’m bad at is because Im afraid of failure.

It’s an immature world view and certainly not something to be proud of. 

I question sometimes if I’ve ever really been good at something. I can’t think of anything that I could consider a natural talent.

I mean, I’m decent at CAD and journaling but at the same time I know that there are people out there who are eight million times better then I am. 

The way I see it the skills I’m best at are probably just slightly above the average. 

And honestly there’s nothing wrong with that, there are plenty of people who are well below average. 

But at the same time is discouraging to think just how much better others are at things then I am.